DDay tomorrow..
Gonna have my LASIK tomorrow. Finally!

I'm crossing my fingers in whatever angle possible that nothing goes wrong during the surgery and that i can really bid farewell to nerdy specs and annoying lens.

Can't believe i actually wore my specs out of the house for almost a week. I think the last time i ever did that was like in jc or even before that. Trust me when i say i condemn specs. -___-

The more i think of my book tote, the more i wish i could lay my hands on them. ARgh. But i cant find a way to get them to singapore!! Can jaebeom send it to me from Seattle? Lol. Was looking at facebook these days and it dawned on me that alot of my peers have already been to US. Ok. I just made up my mind that i should save really hard and fly to US myself one day. I soooooo wanna go to Seattle, LA and NY. And maybe drop by Boston and California. For taec and khun's sake. HAAH.

Been indulging in my utube obsession for the past week and i still have not got enough of it. Lol. Rewatched 2PM [혈열남아] and [떴다 그녀] (i just had to do that) and Jaebeom is just so unbelievably adorable. ^^  On the other hand, i have also been busy trying to cram my brain with names and matching them to faces. And the current count stands at 5 down, 1 left for Beast and 2 down, 3 left for MBLAQ. Boybands names overload. But i'm not complaining of course. Ha.

Time to let my poor desktop take its well deserved rest. The poor fella had been up and working since 9 or 10am in the morning! OOps.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 9:34 PM

A new life..
Truth to be told, I'm actually feeling rather good these days. Which is kinda weird and novel in a sense, given the perpetual pessimistic streak that i had always thought to be so deeply ingrained in me. Yeah, for those who never did realise it, (not that i show it often) i do NOT view this world as an 'oh-so-wonderful' place i.e. i am cynical. Very. In fact, it's almost second nature to constantly find faults not just with this world, but with the people in it, including me.

That probably alludes to why i am an atheist as well.

It's not that i'm furious with anything or anyone. It's just that there's practically nothing to let me anticipate in this world. Well, besides korean stuff. But now, i am slowly getting the feeling that maybe there is something else after all..

Which should be good i guess.

I should attribute this to my new job. Heh.



또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:53 PM

Jae&Jay

Waiting for this to be released on November 12.. Issit just me or does jae look prettier than han hyo joo? Lol. Hope the release doesn't get pushed back again.. As a typical fan, i certainly don't look forward to the smoochy scenes. -___-''

It sometimes amuses me how jae and jay (despite the similarity in name) attract me for totally different reasons. Jae is incredibly beautiful and I have always considered him as the benchmark for my 'pretty boy' standards i.e. nobody else measures up to him in terms of looks, so in short, Jae is practically the incarnation of the word 'perfection' himself. Of cos, added to that will be his extremely gentle demeanour and that wonderfully husky yet soothing voice. He may also not be the best in dancing, but to me, perhaps the only flaw in his character is that he's the self-conscious type who is usually reluctant to do gags etc. or anything that can possibly ruin his image. Well, frankly that doesn't affect me much cos i'm rather similar in that aspect. Lol.

On the other side of the spectrum, Jay does not typically fall under the 'pretty boy' category. Well, he did sport a long fringe when he first debuted (and i still think that looks really good on him) but i'm actually fine with jay's later hairdos as well. And ah, he's not tall. I have to admit that it was something unattractive at first, but later that point became irrelevant. Heh, so for jay i kinda ignored my usual standards c.f. jae. (jae is almost 180cm himself) and while both of them do train at the gym, there's no way jae's abs can be comparable to jay's.  

Here's a picture for emphasis. LOLx. So what was i saying.. Hahaa. Oh and even though jay may not be jae-kind-of-beautiful, he's gorgeous in his own way. Yeah for the first time in my life, i actually labelled someone as being beautiful not based on looks. I am pretty superficial.. ha. I mean not that i'm talking about people around me in real life, i'm talking about stars anyway. I like jay's voice alot, though of cos there may be opinions that differ from mine and jae's voice is definitely smoother to most. But i adore the fact that jay's a natural b-boy, and he raps n sings and has that american accented english+half-past six korean. LOl. Both of them may be equally dorky at times, but unlike self-conscious jae, jay is much more open and game for anything. And i really mean anything, including stockings over the head. Keke. That just makes him more adorable than ever. ^^

Last but not least, the main factor that makes them so appealing is kinda cliched, but it's the amount of hard work they put in. I love the kind of never-say-die spirit they have, particularly in jay. It wouldn't be exaggeration if i go as far as to say that its inspiring.




또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:02 AM

Lazy.
Wasn't in the mood to blog again these days. That despite the fact that alot of things happened during this period. Guess it would be much easier to list them.

1) I am FINALLY leaving my current job. It's not that i dislike it, it's just that it has gotten to the point that i am rather sick of it. I mean it's not something that i would actually imagine myself doing for the rest of my life. And alot of other factors contributed to it; for example, the possibility of moving into a condo (earlier), or even getting down to having a puppy of my own actually hinges on the job i have. So yeah.

2) The reason why i'm tendering my resignation in the midst of the lousy economy is that i also FINALLY landed a new job. ^^ Going back to a familar environment which can be good and bad depending on how you look at it. But for now, i'm pretty satisfied with it.

3) Been pretty much leading a pseudo-tai tai life recently. Lol. Not wanting to under-pamper myself (excuses), i actually signed up for a couple of packages without so much as blinking an eye, namely a classic pedi&mani package, a True Spa package, Amore gym package and an aesthetics package with Neuglow that i decline to elaborate on. And to add to that, i may be going for LASIK too. My mum suddenly had a total change in her attitude towards LASIK and suggested that i do it before starting the new job since it would be hard to get leave after that. Now that she's the one initiating it, i end up getting the jitters myself about the operation. Sheesh. But it is something that i really wanted to do, given that so many friends around me had already went through it and survived. After all the reviews online, i am contemplating Epi-LASIK over the conventional Intralase LASIK. Hmm..

4) Although i have already informed the principal about it, i am still rather annoyed as i would rather stop teaching completely so that i can go for my LASIK and have enough recovery time before i embark on the new job. Yet, the lack of teachers means that i might not be able to leave earlier.. Unless i force my bf to turn full-time. Lol. Ok out of the question.

5) At the same time, i wish to 'get rid' of my tuition but the mum has been dismissing my request, unwilling to let me go. I'm not flattered in any way. I guess it's just familiarity that's driving her reluctance. But i will still definitely end it by this month.

6) Was having body aches last week after consecutive lessons of kickboxing and belly dancing at Amore. I enjoy the former, but i can't say the same for the latter.. Lol. Trust me, i would rather go for hiphop, salsa or even bboy.

7) Ok, that's all about my life and now to other stuff.

8) Jay is still not yet back. It's an issue that has been nagging at my mind all this while since the day he left korea. I wanna cross my fingers and pray that the countdown over at the official 2PM site is for his return, but i'm afraid of disappointment at the same time. The waiting sux. I was only in korea for less than 4 months and i already missed it so much, how can netizens be so cruel and unfeeling to someone who had been in korea for 4 years just for his training. It's lame. Pure lameness.

9) The court may have ruled in favour of jae, su and chun so far (Who wouldn't for christ's sake.. even a blind man can see that LSM is practically devouring all the profits himself) but the case is still officially unsettled yet and again, the waiting sux. DBSK is the best of the best and LSM is just digging his own grave if he chooses to give them up. Dumb.

10) The only thing that makes my life light up a notch these days is [You're Beautiful]. I mentioned it before, but if 2PM and DBSK ever cease to be active, i might be disillusioned enough with the korean entertainment industry to give it up entirely. Too much injustice for me to swallow and still smile at it. Thankfully, jang geun seok, hongki and jung yonghwa are preserving my sanity by furnishing me with a reason not to throw in the towel. Yet. All 3 of them are so adorable~

또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:31 PM

A lone Piscean in this world
11.03.1984
꿈을 잃은 아이
Frigging irrational
Works solely on emotion
Nonchalent about reality
Advocate of Atheism
Not a people's person,
but an animals' person
Only belief - 대한민국

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제발.
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